Guilty

I'm feeling guilty. I should never have these split feelings. Something I can't help, but is haunting me anyway.

These split feelings... I must burn away...

Can't afford to hurt the feelings of either one of them. It's just not me. I'd rather hurt myself then to hurt the both of them. What should I do?

Another sleepless night... Wondering what will become of me... I have to get through this!

Be strong, Mask! Be strong...

A new journey...

Human emotions aren't what they seem... Why must my feelings be split between 2 people? I love my gf very much. At the same time, I'm attracted to another. This isn't right. This isn't what's supposed to happen. It has been a week of agony.

Long sleepless nights.

When will this all end? Am I to once again fall victim to my own emotions? Why did I have to tell her?

All these questions, with no answer. It's driving me insane. Loneliness was my best friend. And now, my best friend is returning to me.

I can't find an answer to this problem. Not now, at least. I'm in need of sleep... The sleepless nights thinking about the 2 of them are taking a toll on my body. I guess I'm not as strong as I used to be.

Until I can come up with a solution, I give rise to my new identity.

Mask.

Hide my tears behind a painful mask.